Back to square one !

Me, being a webdeveloper was meeting a client today to discuss about aspects of the website my company was to develop for her. The client is a young aspiring model who has this startup of a production house. We are to make the company profile for the same. The deal is confirmed and I am meeting her for the second time to discuss in detail. Now, I am sitting at a coffee shop and suddenly the course of the meeting turns in something like she is obliging us by giving the project to us. She turns all friendly and says, " you know, all my colleagues think that I am giving the project for development of the website to some kids and I replied to them that, no , such young people should be given a chance, and this is how even their company will grow and stuff. They are trying to do something new and we should encourage them.She also mentioned the term 'bachalog'.

Now, this ticked me off. Now, I am thinking, she just called me a baccha. I am like 'Uski gulti hi nahi hai'. but, deep down, I was enraged, and my colleague could she that in me and changed the topic. I swear, I could have stood up and shouted "Aukaaaat"... I know that I am not a person who will boas around telling every one that I am better than you, but a that point it seemed the right thing to do. I figure, that its not her fault but now that I think of it, I am not really angry with her. In fact, I am not angry at all, but I actually miss my previous venture 'Live2own' which in a huge way has changed me a lot and I am what I am because of it. But most of all, Live2own had brought us a taste of fame, respect and popularity. People knew us and we had a brand. They did that cause something we created changed the ways and catered to the needs of the society and were grateful towards us.

What I realized that, I am totally in a new industry and I am creating a new brand and an image. And it's all from scratch. The meeting with marketing executives of big companies are gone. The politics, the fame, the respect all gone ! All is left is experience of it and I have to build it all over again. Such clients are always gonna see me again as something small now cause they dont know the history. And believe me, that is hugely annoying and frustrating. After, Live2own, such meetings, it all looks inconsequential.

Somehow, I am unable to accept the fact that I am no more that brand but I know I have to start from scratch and have to move on. This event is something that made me realize what Live2own was as I now see it as an outsider and what I was. It makes me realize that Live2own was huge and what I was due to at that time.
I am back to a square one !